Javajune's Blog

Someone once said… “Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live.”

Dear Sandra

Please welcome Callie to the sofa.

It’s been over thirty years since our childhood fun but I still remember. We were as different as two friends could be, me in a tiny immature body that still mirrored a girl of a much lesser age and you with your grown-up curves and advanced maturity. We were close friends but you were a much better friend than I. After all of these years I am still reminded, no haunted, by my lack of compassion which perpetuated the down-fall of our friendship. Your mind and body matured more quickly than mine and I was unable to understand your struggles as a nine year old girl in a woman’s body. I remember the day your bra came undone and you needed a friend to accompany you to the girls room and give you a hand. I was mortified at the thought of being seen going into a single stalled restroom to help a friend with her bra. I had no idea what it would be like to wear a bra, let alone have a malfunction in the middle of class. I gave you an awful excuse of not wanting to ruin my reputation. I can still see the look on your face with your arms locked across your chest. I heard the boys taunt you even though I pretended not to notice. This changed our friendship forever and  it wasn’t long after that incident that you and your family moved away.  As I grew older I began to better understand  how you must have felt.  It seems silly that an insincere act from so many years ago still ways heavy on my mind but it does. I think it’s because I felt the weight of your hurt and saw the disappointment in your eyes. It certainly left a mass of guilt on me for the past thirty years.  I often wonder how this breach of friendship impacted your life, if at all. It’s funny the things that make the biggest impressions and force us to remember the past.

Junie: How sad but sweet of you to harbor this guilt for so many years. My guess is that this has impacted you much more than your friend. She may not even remember. I think it’s time to let go and forgive that little nine year old girl.

jj

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January 25, 2009 Posted by | confessions, Hello Miss Manners | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

What do you really want?

img_0160_1-2Hey friends and Sofa Diary readers I’m back from my Laws of Attraction workshop. I not only survived but I loved it. I sat in  the presence of people from all walks of life, who had come together to make a positive change in their lives.  Most were in transition (unemployed or looking for a significant change in their life) but all came with an open mind and positive spirit. The energy was contagious and the vibe irresistible.  I wasn’t hit up for money (the seminar was paid for) and nobody drug me off to a secret cult location. Sigh of relief.

So what the heck did happen? We studied the ways that positive thoughts and feelings can impact our life for the better. We explored  the answers to the question of what we want to acheive. The question was “what do you want in your life?” Is it prosperity? (yes please).    Love through solid relationships (you bet).    Or is it a long life of health and happiness? (of course).    Perhaps you’re just looking for success and a whole lot of money to come your way. (give me some of that).  Go here to see what I’m looking for.

What ever transaction you want in of your life you can make it happen with positive vibes (thoughts and feelings). What you send out is exactly what the universe responds with. Now that doesn’t mean you can sit on the sofa all day, think positive thoughts  and expect to receive. You will have to take positive actions as well. Do I believe it? I think I do for the most part. Providing my expectations are realistic. Does it hurt to try? Absolutely not. It does force us to take responsibility for our own happiness. No more blaming others. Try this to see exactly what your mind is capable of.

If I were to ask you the question: what do you want? What would your answer be? Come on don’t be afraid to ask the universe , just put it out there and see what happens. Sometimes dreams really do come true. Yes I honestly believe that. So, now that I’m asking, tell me: what do you really want?

I wanted to leave you with My Muse.

jj

January 25, 2009 Posted by | me, secrets | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 7 Comments