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Someone once said… “Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live.”

Reflection and the Purge

In the mood for a little reflection. The girl, her past and a forbidden love.


 She had the world at her finger tips as she came into her own, too many friends to count, the eyes of every guy as she passed by. She indulged a few but was still searching for something. The player was very intriguing and a little sexy but couldn’t commit. Ahhh, the player, too bad. That relationship was too scary for this girl who needed too much. She lived in a very protected place, censorship, perfectly lovely family who said all the right things, no violence, no ugly scenes, just clean living.  She was always the pampered princess but this girl was so curious. She had to take a peek now and then at life on the other side. The characters were so real and they felt and expressed it all, everything good and bad and all that was in-between. She tiptoed and dipped her feet, just until her toes got wet, well, maybe slightly damp. Unlike those who loved and pampered her she was always reaching for the forbidden fruit.  Her Friends began to change places as she took a walk with those who dwell-ed on the wilder side.  Just a short walk not a dance. She watched but never partook, her life was just on the edge but never tainted.

Then one day a boy from the other side of the tracks caught her eye. He was dangerous, at least on the outside. She indulged him a lot.  He fell hard and she followed. He was the first boy who liked her for who she truly was and she liked him back.  And now…The player doesn’t dwell in her garden anymore he plays in a yard near-by.  Sigh…   As for the dangerous boy… Well, lets leave that for another time and place.

Had to get this out of my head. It’s getting crowded in here and I’m trying to purge before vacation. Lovely, oh so lovely…. vacation.


Don’t forget about tomorrow’s big give-away. Woooowhoooo!

April 8, 2009 Posted by | bad boys, lovers, me | , , , , , , | 4 Comments

The recurring dream


The scary tree outside my window (secret..I’m still afraid of the dark-sometimes)

Today I would like to take you on a little journey to a secret place. Let’s take a ride through dreamland. So get ready, sit back and just let go……. Floating through the darkness and then…… my dream begins.

Lights are flickering- great adventures unfolding. Coasting, coasting with my head in the clouds. Dreams are like a story, they take you there and leave you standing where all things are possible and you always land softly.

Lights are flickering and I have visions flashing in my head. My recurring dream is here again. I don’t believe it. He takes me there, the stars, the sky wide open. Drifting, floating, and coasting to a soft landing. Then something tickles my ear,”Do you hear me calling…”  I see the man who is no stranger in my dreams “come hear, love”  he whispers through the night. The trees part ways and a moon appears, so luminous it takes my breath away. The scenery, the great adventure, the man with my dreams in his hand. I reach for him but then I recognize my heart in a tiny little box, bright pink and beating ever so slowly, steam rises, his hands, my heart, his vision, my dreams, our life. I don’t believe it. 

He says goodnight and so I go….far, far, very far away, rising, twisting, turning into a downward spiral to a soft landing. The curtains breathing life into a stale room, in and out with the gentle breeze, the canopy of my bed, the twinkling of a million stars, I am alone in a pool of sweat, my heart firmly planted, and my life the same. I’m falling for him baaad! But it’s too late. I believe it.   jj

I just wanted to leave you with dreams and wide open spaces for your mid- week pondering. Have a dreamy Wednesday. For those of you who commented, I updated the story here.   Thanks….jj

Enjoy a  little “Bubbly Toes” by Jack Johnson to make you move like a jellyfish, his words not mine.

Gotta love that!   Be on your bubbly toes tomorrow when I post Java June’s Travel Treasure give-away

April 8, 2009 Posted by | lovers, me, secrets | , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments