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Life-scape Architect

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Someone once said, “we are all artist- artists in creating our own lives.”

I thought about that statement for a while and realized just how true it was. We create little niches of beauty and splashes of color throughout our lifetimes. This affects everyone we come in contact with. We are gardeners in our own domain even if we never touch a living plant. It’s difficult to control the world around us but it is quite possible to create a little oasis in our own life. A place to come home to. A place that makes us feel happy and somewhat in control of our own destiny. A room that is decorated in our favorite color or a theme that fits our personality to a tee. A beautiful rose bush or cozy garden spot to sit and listen to the birds chatter or simply something lovely to look at will do.

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I feel quite certain that we are all artists and gardeners of our own lives and make a difference in the gardens around us. The spaces we create and the circles of friends and contacts we develop is vital to sustaining a meaningful life. We put together a nurturing environment and a place to feel safe. We create in the kitchen, the office, and our own back yard. Our lives weave a story and lay a path for others to follow. Our style is sometimes imitated and our laugh is often contagious. We are the master of our own palate and some of us are responsible for creating life which is pretty amazing.

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Think about all that you have created both grand and insignificant throughout your lifetime- isn’t it amazing? I’d like to think of it as life-scaping but actually it is so much more.

You don’t want to miss my next post on Saturday. I have teamed up with some very creative souls and we are having a very mad tea party over at A Fanciful twist. Our hostess is Vanessa- an incredible lady that you just have to meet. Her parties are quite incredible and the guest list for this one looks like it has almost three hundred participants thus far. Wow, I can’t wait. I am bringing some pretty crazy quests to the party- so stop by and check out the fun this weekend!

See you all on Saturday!

xo-jj

June 24, 2009 Posted by | me, photography, Uncategorized | , , , , , , , , , , | 7 Comments

Unravelling and the real me

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So, I think I’ve mentioned a few times over the past eight weeks that I’ve embarked on a journey into myself. This journey set sail in an Unravelling  e-course that took a group of people through an exploration of their true selves  by a process of  photo-journaling their life. I jumped in with both feet, so to speak, as the first assignment was of my feet but some where along the way my enthusiasm wained just a bit. I’m not sure how much my perception of myself has changed over the past few weeks but I do think that my acceptance of the real me has improved just a bit.

I started out feeling somewhat strange about taking photographs of myself but got used to the idea as the weeks rolled on.  I soon realized that the pics I liked the most were the softer and maybe a little over exposed shots. I analysed that a bit and then concluded that this is exactly how I prefer to see life. A little soft and fuzzy, no rough edges, a view that allows me to ignore the parts that aren’t so pretty. Since hitting the big four- o, I have struggled with the thought of getting older and the reality that is settling into my face and body. I feel like a young girl trapped in a middle aged woman’s life.

Throughout my entire life I was the girl who wasn’t exceptionally smart-just average and not particularly talented in any one area- just okay at a few things but everyone just referred to me as that pretty girl, many never even knew my my name. I even had a boss tell the computer programming guy not to ask me any technical questions because I was just the pretty girl in the office- that boss was a woman. This used to infuriate me but now I seem to be scrambling to hold on to that pretty girl who is changing into a average woman- I never wanted to be average.  Pretty fades- so, I’m ready to move on to something deeper and more spectaculiar in my life. I want to be remembered for my accomplishments.

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We struggle all our lives to be more than what we are and in the end I think we fail to appreciate our true talents or assets. These days it takes a little longer for me to accept the face I see in the mirror and I do have a few secret weapons but the whole beauty thing has gotten a bit expensive. It’s just not the same for men. Are they just naturally better looking or do we just except them the way they are? I think it’s the latter- sorry guys.

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During the Unravelling e-course I’ve realized I’m not alone in my struggle to accept myself and that many of my classmates have far greater issues than I. It has been interesting to look at an image of a fellow classmate and view them one way until I read their perception of themselves and then this image takes on a whole different light. So I guess what I am saying is that the way you perceive and portray yourself greatly influences the way others see you.  Perhaps this means if I want to look like a  young beautiful woman that is fully capable and talented in many ways, I must first see those things in myself before they’ll become apparent to others. Does that make sense?

Unravelling to the end

I started out as that pretty little girl and then become that average woman I see in the mirror today.

I’m sad to see this class come to an end and don’t know how it will impact my life but I do think that everything we experience in life changes us just a little.

xo-jj

June 24, 2009 Posted by | me, photography, secrets | , , , , , , , , | 8 Comments