Javajune's Blog

Someone once said… “Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live.”

A fresh day



A fresh day filled with time and possibilities. An open mind on a path to discovery. The engine running, a tank filled with gas and me. It’s amazing what can happen when everything comes together in a perfect fit. 

Sometimes I can feel it; the day is right and almost anything is possible. I think I’ve finally learned to trust my instincts and seize the moment. My window is open as the breeze gently nudges me awake- I feel so alive. It’s time to refresh and take another fork in the road. I don’t know where it will lead, but there it is, all laid out before me, tempting, promising and it feels right. It only takes a step or two, one foot in front of the other, eyes straight ahead, no reason to fear or look back. Trust yourself, trust the moment, trust the universe, and go all the way.

Do you feel it?


October 6, 2009 Posted by | me, photography, rants | , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Come to my window

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Mr. J keeps putting away this old window that belonged to my grandparents farm house but I keep dragging it back out because I like to peer into the old wavvy glass. Sometimes just for a moment I catch a glimpse of my past.

Do you ever feel as though no matter how hard you try to be a certain way or do certain things, your true self  is always revealed- like there is an unseen guide that opens doors and windows for you when you’re not looking.  I’m not talking about religion here but something that might be a bit similar. I do have faith although it at times it is a little confused or unsure of itself. It just seems to me that no matter what I think I want or where I think I should be in my life, my real position or destiny always wins. This is difficult to explain but let me take another shot at it. Now listen closely because this may be a bit hard to follow. hee hee

I have always wanted to be things I’m not- like a successful business woman, someone famous, a published author, a tall model; well you get the picture, right? I  head off on little life journeys or alterations seeking such things but something unseen always pulls me back to this place- no not this blog, silly. Back to this girl who rambles and jumps in with both feet before looking, and then back to a girl who changes her mind as often as the wind changes direction. My life always centers on a small map of curiosities and adventures, never too far from home base but always traveling in one direction or another. This girl is creative, a little flighty and her attention spans is less than an inch long. She may never be famous or head of a fortune five hundred company but that’s okay, right? I should also mention that sometimes she is a little unsure of herself.

I was never one that said I want to be such and such when I grow up. There were way too many possibilities- how in the world could I choose just one? So I dabbled- yes I am a great dabbler if nothing else. Having said all of that, this post still fails to make my point which is that no matter what I do I will always be exactly what I am. Okay good I have figured it out. Well… not exactly- I’m not sure who the, I am, is. I told you this was going to get complicated.

Do we all have some big divine purpose or are some of us just destined to ride along making things interesting for others? Is there really some sort of giant magnet pulling us back to center when we veer too far off the path? What makes me fall back to that same old girl that I started with and why can’t I be something else entirely?

Have you ever thought about these kinds of things or is it just me? Maybe the rest of you are smart enough to know that it’s best to just go with the flow and not fight the current. I usually do just that but then there are those moments when I see something on the other side and think yes I should try that, go there, or maybe be her- instead of me. I guess I was meant to stay this girl who takes pictures and tells stories and nothing else.

Hopefully by now you aren’t thinking whoa this chick is way crazy or something similar. This chick isn’t too crazy, maybe slightly off center, but not too far. She’s not a perfectly shaped circle and definitely not square, just slightly irregular with a few nooks and crannies. Hmmmm, speaking of nooks and crannies I wish I had an English muffin smothered with rich melted butter that has seeped down into all the nooks and crannies just perfectly.


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Okay the wind has changed and so goes my mind. I’m off to forage for breakfast.

Have a great day.


June 10, 2009 Posted by | confessions, me, rants | , , , , , , , | 8 Comments

Everyone looks through their own window



“Everyone looks through their own window.” I love this statement. It’s something I remind myself of almost daily. We all see things in a different light and process it in our own way, imposing our very own meaning into everything.

I love to write and photograph things that speak to me. When I see something that touches me I usually think or a story or poem- no surprise there.

When I look at the photo above I see something like this:

Everyone looks through their own window and sees the world in their own way. Some with fresh eyes and open mind,  while others have their head in a mold too tight for insight and truth. There is no hiding from what the eyes perceive as truth. The light reveals all things but is subject to interpretation. Open your eyes as you peel back the layers of preconceived notions and really see for the fist time- like the eyes of an Innocent child. Let your mind wander and your dreams run free. All things are possible when your window is open.

So where am I leading you with my images and insight. Well I have decided to start offering my photography and insights as a package deal through my etsy shop. They aren’t for sale just yet but very soon. Perhaps as soon as next week. My novel is kind of like a dog chasing his tail right now. I have to write- it’s a part of me and I lust for making images that speak to me. Words just bubble up until they reach the surface and spill out everywhere and into everything. So this idea just seemed like the perfect fit.

I have several images in mind but only a few are ready with words. I’ll start with my bleeding heart series and the image and open window essay above. The bleeding heart series will look something like this:



Her heart was filled with secrets and stories too good to tell. She desperately wanted to tell you but there was this matter of the heart. You see it blossomed and ripened and was just about ready to burst with happiness when something happened. A tiny leak caused her heart to bleed just a little and then a little became a lot. Her heart was still beautiful but could no longer do the job it was intended for. The perfect love requires the perfect heart, no leaks and no flaws. This matter of the heart led her to a place of a different kind, perhaps not a book of love stories, but a place enchanted and full of light. So she started down a new path, no less than the last, just different. she wasn’t afraid and didn’t lose her heart completely. She found a place that was secret and hidden- just right for safe keeping. “Don’t be afraid ” she said, “take a new path and make a fresh start, follow your passion, your heart, your bliss.” She took one tiny step and then another which led to something wonderful. This girl with the bleeding heart took her first step toward creating a new life for herself. Will you?

That’s all of me, today. Remember and don’t forget…. All things are possible when your window is open! 

Open your window let the breeze in while you listen to my favorite band (Bliss) with me.


May 7, 2009 Posted by | me, photography, secrets | , , , , , , , | 6 Comments