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Do You Remember our Secret?

Please welcome Bali-Girl  to the sofa.

Do you remember last New Year’s Eve-I will never forget. I have kept our secret all year and you were afraid that I would let it slip.  I think of you often but especially now. The memory of our night together is cutting me deep. I can’t get away from the thoughts of you in perfect form as we opened the New Year. I thought that just maybe I was getting over you-I’m not.  I know that we could never be- you have an image to keep.  Still, I wish for just one more magical night of passion and  feelings that can’t be explained. You chose a path that keeps you in the spotlight, never far from the public eye-I did not.  I know that I am so beneath you and if I were to let our secret slip, it would destroy everything you have worked so hard to achieve.  I understand why you cannot be with me, but do you understand why I dream of letting our secret slip inadvertently, just to see what happens. My hope is that you would forgive my indiscretion and sweep me off my feet, then tell me that you can’t live without me as we disappear into a new life together. I dream of you, especially today- my heart is with you, always. Signed your Bali girl.

Junie: So beautiful and yet so sad. I hope your secret lover reads this.


December 30, 2008 Posted by | lovers, secrets | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Confessions from a Secret Lover

Welcome Dreamer to the sofa.

I felt that burning sensation climb up my legs and settle in my chest. You felt it too, I could tell. My mind was occupied with thoughts of you, every day. You missed me too. I know because you told me so. I felt lonely but I knew that I was not alone. You were with me in spirit.

This lonely charade has gone on on far too long. I’ve grown tired of pretending not to know you. I want more than just a secret meeting at 3:00 am. Making love to you is better than I could have ever imagined but the loneliness is worse. You are a gifted lover but you have a full life without me. When we make love our bodies melt into a single burning ember of passion but we are forced to extinguish the glow and go back to a facade that is killing me.

As long as you are in my heart there is no room for any others. I can’t play this game of secret lovers with you anymore. I must move on. Our secret will never die completely, it will just whither and fade until it occupies the tiniest corner in my heart. I miss you.

Junie: Dreamer that was beautifully said. I loved every word.

December 12, 2008 Posted by | secrets, Uncategorized | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment