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Love ’em or Lose ’em

Please welcome Nan to the sofa.

I am a complete user when it comes to relationships. My boyfriend is a really great guy and he treats me like a queen. The sex is too good for words. My problem is that I’m not in love with him. I know he loves me because he has told me so on several occasions and he is now talking about marriage. I should tell him how I feel but I don’t want to lose him. I can’t see myself ever considering marriage with him but I don’t want to be alone either. We have a great time together and he really fits into my life right now. He fits in but he’s not the one. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life with someone that I’m not passionately in love with. It just wouldn’t last. I want to find a guy that makes my heart beat faster and someone I can’t stop thinking about. He’s not it. I want to keep our relationship the way it is until I find the one. This is selfish-yes-but it is my life.

Junie: I understand how you feel but you do need to be honest with him. Did you ever consider that this relationship may be getting in the way of finding Mr. Right?

January 19, 2009 Posted by javajune | confessions, Hello Miss Manners, lovers, secrets | boyfriend, girlfriend, heart beat faster, honesty, I don't, Mr. Right, Mr. Wrong, my life, not the one, passionate, perfect fit, relationship, selfish lover, sex, too good | 3 Comments

My Diary

I’m Java June or Junie as my friends call me. I’m just a hopeless romantic with a master’s degree in all things dreamy. I could be described as a mid-western girl-next-door with a case of wander lust. My curiosity for all things that cannot be explained sometimes gets me in some unusual predicaments. Come dream with me between the pages of my diary.

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